It brought a deep sense of loneliness as i wondered what love was if I didn't even know "what" "I" was . If we are all one how can we love each other as separate entities? What IS love? Selfish attachment? Ego connections?
Maybe we just need each other.
started to wonder if we synchronize our spirit selves in order to connect and help each other evolve..because in the void i didnt think the soul can evolve. Only through life and connection can our bits of the Universal soul evolve, fix, and transcend.
Confused. went through a period thinking this is why I felt lately disconnected from other humans. able to empathize but feeling like I am a different species. Started to look at my childhood and saw there was not allot of healthy love growing up.
Was feeling depressed for a week or so...spoke to the guy who helped me in the bathroom in the last session. A beautiful soul. he came to visit me during work and while I chatted with him asked him what the brew was I drank before the last session. He told me "acacia".
I looked up "acacia * aya" when I got home and the first result was from erowid. The experience this guy had was so similar to mine! I suddenly felt so validated and less "crazy"/
whats funny is the week before I discovered the plant I drank was acacia, I saw the movie "Noah". really enjoyed the interpretation the director took with the scripture. We see Noah joining Methuselah for a drink of "tea" which looks shockingly like ayahausca! And Noah started to see the visions from God right after.
Spoke to my friend Mike about this and he tells me , Noah's ark was built from Accacia!!!!! Hmm..very interesting ;)
Now I dont agree with Benny Shanon's heretical views but I do wonder if the ancients used these medicinal plants to see the divine sometimes.
As you can see in this article the idea:
Moses saw God 'because he was stoned - again'
The Bible tells us that when the Children of Israel left Egypt, they had a 40-year trip through the desert before reaching the Promised Land. Now a leading Israeli academic has a new theory about exactly what kind of trip it was.
In the philosophy journal Time and Mind, Benny Shanon states that key events of the Old Testament are actually records of visions by ancient Israelites high on hallucinogens. Shanon is a professor at Jerusalem's Hebrew University, where he used to head the psychology department.
The psychedelic substance is a drink called Ayahuasca. It is extracted from plants that grow in the Holy Land and in the Sinai peninsula and is still used today by Amazonians in Brazil for their religious rituals. Shanon came up with his theory when reading the Bible. The events described reminded him of the visions he had after trying this drink 15 years ago. So, when Moses first encountered God, he was high. "Encountering the divine is one of the most powerful experiences associated with high-level Ayahuasca inebriation," claims Shanon.
At the Burning Bush, covered in flames but mysteriously not consumed, there was no miracle, just a drug-induced "radical alteration in the state of consciousness of the beholder - that is, Moses". The account of the Children of Israel hearing God while camped at Mount Sinai is about a mass drug-taking event - giving a whole new explanation for the reported "cloud of smoke" that settled on the mountain. And when Moses climbed Sinai and received the Ten Commandments and the Bible, he was tripping.
Hardly an incident in the Bible is spared Shanon's drug-focused reading. Acacia trees, used by Noah to build the ark, were revered because some varieties contain the psychedelic substance dimethyltryptamine (DMT). In Shanon's opinion, the Tree of Knowledge in the Garden of Eden offered something far more tempting than an apple.
Rabbis in Israel and the UK are largely ignoring Shanon's theories, and those who have spoken out have been dismissive. "The Bible is trying to convey a very profound event. We have to fear not for the fate of the biblical Moses, but for the fate of science," Rabbi Yuval Sherlow told Israel Radio. Israeli internet chatrooms, though, are buzzing with condemnations of "heresy", endorsements, and charges that Shanon, not Moses, must have taken drugs. One poster writes: "Maybe it is true - then religion really is the opiate of the people."
http://www.theguardian.com/world/2008/mar/06/religion.israelandthepalestinians
